Lately...

Lately I have been going to sleep to a movie. I just can't get my mind to shut off. Life got hard and busy and I don't know how to deal with it. And it's not like I have never been busy before, I have. It's just more complicated now. I don't want to give that extra effort that would make things okay. I just don't. I can't get rid of that feeling, you know, the one that will never let you relax because you have a million things to do. And somehow you get them all done. That's how it has ended up before, but this kind of feels different. Like there is no ending. And there might not be and so what. What do I care? I seem to care a little too much. Maybe that's my problem. I should try to not care so much. But for now I just need more movies...

"Pain...you just have to ride it out. The truth is you can't outrun it. Life always makes more."
-the creative writers of Grey's Anatomy